Happy Halloween.

mini-me :].

Angels.

i don't even like Diddy like that but this video and song goes hard. espcially the beat.

so...

i fukced up...again.
feel like failure but realize gotta keep my head up and keep trying.
dissapointment blows but that's life.
gotta work harder.
i can't wait 'til all this college stuff is over with.

throw it in;
Me: yo Jesus needs to help us with all that for real.
Naina: no for real tho; Jesus need to help me with my math on the SAT's.
^^lmao; i love my bestfriends; they make all this stress go away!

so...

i can't wait to get the fukc outta high school.

thug lifeee.

lol; nah i only want like 2 or 3.
4:43pmNaina
yea thats y i said in REALITY
4:44pmSedef
lol; in reality OR dreams; i still wouldn't want a lot of kids; come on now with a mother like me!?! how will they turn out!@??
lol.
4:46pmNaina
u shouldnt have ANY kids
4:47pmSedef
i KNOW! but you need couple of mini me's here and there tho!
4:47pmNaina
o heeeeeeeeeeell no. not round ma kids. LMAO!!!
4:48pmSedef
:o you BITCH! lol; please; my kids and ya' kids gonna be bestfirneds; imagine all the kids they'll beat up yo!lol.
4:51pmNaina
lmao!! they could b one hell of a gang
4:51pmSedef
yo i swear! they really would be lol; they'll be some THUGS!
4:54pmNaina
i know! lol sike. my kids r gonna b smart asses that go 2 harvard on a scholarship! lmao
4:55pmSedef
lmfao; colored kids with glasses with dressy clothes and ties sitting in the front seats!
wait; with wash and dry hair tho.
4:56pmNaina
yeaaaaaa of course. there skin is jus gonna b a little darker than usual wash and dry kids lol
4:57pmSedef
lmao; black kids with white people hair!
4:58pmNaina
im tellin you. there gonna b tha grestest and cutest kids ever! watch! and tha only friends there gonna have r eachother! i love nerds!
4:59pmSedef
lmao; lmao lmaooo. wait, Naina; if your kids don't be my kids' friends then my niggas won't have NO typa friends! you know they gonna be some outcast ass thugs!
5:00pmNaina
oooooo yea. except u n rinas kids. that mean we gotta live next door 2 eachother cuz i know i aint wasting gas evertime they wanna go over there lol
5:01pmSedef
lmfaooo; ya' cheap assss! but yeah; i hear youu! we gonna live right next door to each other; imma make my kids go over to ya' house and eat ya' food ALL the time!lol.
5:03pmNaina
o heeeeeeeeeell no! i dont want no scrubs in ma house tryna eat all my food! moochers! noooooo! lol. watch rina b tha outcast n live cross town
5:04pmSedef
lmfao lmfao lmfao lmfao.

the convo pretty muchh ended right there lol. oh and please don't get offended by ANYTHING she or i said; we just kidding. insiders; yayy lol.

no more cussing.

so i basically had the worst day ever today; literally. it was horrible and all i could do was just cuss around and whatnot. so i realized that i should stop cause i cuss like way to much. sooo; as of today; intead of f*** i say just simply eff or effing and instead of f***er [which was like my favorite word); i say sucka and mothasucka [that's my new favorite lol); instead of sh** i say ishh or junk or stuff. now i don't know if i can do this for a long time but it's worth trying. because i'm at a point where i cuss literally everywhere without even noticing. it probably won't last long but i just wanna see :].

procrastination.

procrastinate:
to defer action, delay, to put off 'till another day or time.

procrastinator:
Sedef.

Happy Birthday...

Drakee!
chances you gonna see this is like one in infinity plus one but still happy birthday and i love you :].

blahh.

parents suck; boys suck; girls suck; people suck; school suck; college stuff suck; college admissions suck; SAT's suck; teachers suck; friends suck; life sucks; CT sucks; dissapointment sucks; liars suck; people that leave you suck; Sounja Boy sucks; my headphones broke so they suck; being broke sucks; being jobless sucks; report cards suck; S.T.R.E.S.S sucks; and last but not least...I suck!
*sighs* think i covered it all...feel free if you wanna add anything!
:]

see you never.

so you won't be there anymore and i won't see you anymore so this is my good-bye to you. bye you asshole/dick! see you never.

madface.

okay okay so i'm extremely stressed out about all this college stuff like which senior isn't? but yeah; i don't like to talk about it tho cause i'm sucha loud, obnoxious [at times), irresponsible and carefree person...at least in all of my friends' eyes i am. but there's this teacher who i absolutely HATED last year and he hated me also but this year when i talked to him on one on one he was supernice and very helpful to me. made me feel much better about all my college stuff and whatnot; he's very easy to talk to. well, when i'm one on one with him; i'm mad calm and easy to talk to also. anyhow; today me and my two bestfriends [who he had last year also) went to him to say hi and well, i was just laughing and cracking jokes and whatnot and when i was leaving i heard him say to one of my bestfriends "...because when i talk to Sedef one on one she's a real person; with you guys she has some fake acts"; now that made me FURIOUS! now in what world do you know me better than my bestfriends!? why would you say something like that!? i appreciate all two talks that we had BUT that does not mean you know me completely nor better than them. i definitely don't act fake around nobody; it's just that he's sucha weird human being he finds my weak spot and i let it all out all calmly. i was just very dissapointed i guess. i wanna talk to him about it tomorrow after school but i don't know if i should. i think i'm gonna. imma BLAST HIM! this needs to be cleared out. i wouldn't want anyone to think that i'm fake cause that is definitely something i am NOT! NEVER have been and NEVER will be.

first post.

OMG, i finally have a blogger thingy! my friends suggested this to me since i talk wayy too much. i'm not a writer or anything tho; i wish i was talented like that. but like i said i'm pretty talkative and i guess this will be a way for me to let it alll out. i like this lol. but yeah; i'm Sedef; people call me Drakehead; i LOVE it lol. oh as you can see from the name i LOVE Drake. this ain't a introduction tho lol. that'll come soon ;].