Bestfriends and cupcakes♥.

Different schools different lives; scary now but it won't even matter. I love you guys always.

The Buried Life♥.

Attack life, it's going to kill you anyway.

Oh hey...

Care if you dare...

questions?

-is it "wife beater" or "white beater" or "wife beader" or "just plain ol' tank top"?
-why do parents say there's a Santa then crash your fukcing dreams after you're like 8?
-why are you lying to your kids?
-why is Hannukah so long?
-what is up with Easter Bunny and the eggs? shouldn't it be Easter Chicken?
-why is Lupe Fiasco underestimated?
-do you feel bad for Rihanna?
-why is Drake so effin' sexy?
-am i an outcast?
-why don't i have a boyfriend?
-how come we have to take the SAT's in order to go to college?
-what if you're not a good test taker?
-why do i still talk to you when you're like the biggest asshole?
-why do we have the silent letters?
-how come the stop sign is red?
-why is the White House white? why can't it be pink?
-would Beyonce be as big as she is right now if Aaliyah was alive?
-did you hear about that 13 year old dad?
-why do i like to be a pest sometimes?
-what makes a great pie?
-why do they call 3.14 pie in math?
-what can we do about the recession?
this ain't even half of it.
so many questions...so little answers.

heartache.

so i came to a conclusion that heartache is not love sickness. it's not something that happens when the one you love or like hurts you or whatever it is. i don't know how to explain it honestly. all i know is i have this weird ass feeling in my heart for the past week. trust me, it is not because of some boy because of the simple fact that there's no worthy boy in my life right now. but for some reasons it starts hurting everytime i think about my past and my future. so did i break my own heart? everytime i start thinking about how i fukced up in the past year i get that feeling. everytime i start thinking about what could've happened if i didn't i get that feeling. everytime i think about myself [period) i get that feeling. i feel like i suck at life; that's another thing that hurts my heart. but it's time to think more positive. i'm getting too emo on that Rihanna shit haha. anywho, my heart is gonna stop hurting soon...i hope. but so far, it blows!

breathe.

nervous.

omg, this is all so overwhelming. and scary. and just crazy. i sent out 4 application in total so far. 2 in NY and 2 in here CT. 1 more in NY and 2 more in CT and imma be done. i'm SO nervous; not knowing what they're gonna say. acceptance or rejection letter. gotta wait and see. aaahhhh; eoaijtyoeajflkejeioajdiojtgkleaj.