heartache.

so i came to a conclusion that heartache is not love sickness. it's not something that happens when the one you love or like hurts you or whatever it is. i don't know how to explain it honestly. all i know is i have this weird ass feeling in my heart for the past week. trust me, it is not because of some boy because of the simple fact that there's no worthy boy in my life right now. but for some reasons it starts hurting everytime i think about my past and my future. so did i break my own heart? everytime i start thinking about how i fukced up in the past year i get that feeling. everytime i start thinking about what could've happened if i didn't i get that feeling. everytime i think about myself [period) i get that feeling. i feel like i suck at life; that's another thing that hurts my heart. but it's time to think more positive. i'm getting too emo on that Rihanna shit haha. anywho, my heart is gonna stop hurting soon...i hope. but so far, it blows!