madface.

okay okay so i'm extremely stressed out about all this college stuff like which senior isn't? but yeah; i don't like to talk about it tho cause i'm sucha loud, obnoxious [at times), irresponsible and carefree person...at least in all of my friends' eyes i am. but there's this teacher who i absolutely HATED last year and he hated me also but this year when i talked to him on one on one he was supernice and very helpful to me. made me feel much better about all my college stuff and whatnot; he's very easy to talk to. well, when i'm one on one with him; i'm mad calm and easy to talk to also. anyhow; today me and my two bestfriends [who he had last year also) went to him to say hi and well, i was just laughing and cracking jokes and whatnot and when i was leaving i heard him say to one of my bestfriends "...because when i talk to Sedef one on one she's a real person; with you guys she has some fake acts"; now that made me FURIOUS! now in what world do you know me better than my bestfriends!? why would you say something like that!? i appreciate all two talks that we had BUT that does not mean you know me completely nor better than them. i definitely don't act fake around nobody; it's just that he's sucha weird human being he finds my weak spot and i let it all out all calmly. i was just very dissapointed i guess. i wanna talk to him about it tomorrow after school but i don't know if i should. i think i'm gonna. imma BLAST HIM! this needs to be cleared out. i wouldn't want anyone to think that i'm fake cause that is definitely something i am NOT! NEVER have been and NEVER will be.